Confessions
of a "Green" Master
What IS a Green Master anyway? Plain and simple, I am. Let’s break that down even farther. If you are here you probably already know what a Master is… a Male Dominant in a D/s relationship. Green… A color, like the grass, the penicillin that is growing on the pizza that has been in the fridge too long, the color of the face of a boy swallowing chewing tobacco juice… But in this case green means new and untested. I am new to the entire lifestyle of Dominant and submissive. That green-ness is made even GREENER by the fact that I am only doing it online. My real life relationship is not open to that idea.
I have been involved in the fringes of online D/s-ing for the better part of a year now. Have collared and released one submissive already but I still feel very new. Have sat in on some chats and meeting rooms online, have talked to many very nice people and even gotten a few compliments but still… Too new to be really all that comfortable at it yet. Maybe I never will be comfy at it, but how will I know unless I try? So I am.
Honestly, I have no idea where to go with it. Doing things online is SO much different than for real, especially in arenas like this. I mean there are a lot of books on the subject ranging from the really light to the really, really deep down workings of things. Things in a real life, right there D/s relationship. Not a one I have found yet is for how to do it online. Some would say that the same rules apply whether it is for real or electronic. I tend to disagree. Yes, some of them do apply, some do with modifications, and some really don’t. Don’t ask me to list them. I can’t. I don’t know many of them.
Part of the definition of a good D/s relationship is trust. A very true statement in any relationship, but even more so in an electronic one. Why? Because you have to trust your partner enough to show up at the predetermined time… You have to trust that they are doing everything you tell them to do… You have to trust that you have their full and undivided attention… And most importantly you still trust them with your feelings. At least that is true for me. I can’t really go into a relationship with the idea of, "It’s online so it isn’t really real." To me a relationship is a relationship online or not. Kinda gushy, huh? But it is true. At least for me it is.
Will I make a good Master? Maybe. I’ve been told that I have the makings of a very good Master. I care, I give, I trust and I am able to HOLD the trust of others. I enjoy being in control of the situation. I even enjoy being called Sir and being able to have what I want while giving to my sub what she wants. I am not the heavy-handed sort unless needed. I am not easy to anger and when I AM angered it does not hold long. I am not afraid to punish if I have to but would MUCH rather reward. That is more fun anyway, right?
So I have had a taste of the lifestyle, electronic though it has been. Do I like it? I seem to. Is it right for me? Who knows yet. It is too early and an online relationship, as I have said, is nothing like the real thing. Am I green? VERY. Am I a Master? I do believe so. Am I practicing that? Without a sub that is hard to do.
One last thought about green things. They grow. So being a Green Master is not so bad. I WILL grow and I may be the best Master anyone has ever seen… But more likely I will be a good one that harbors respect and trust and maybe even love. Time will tell.
by Master Rex